Matthew 25:24-25 - A call for me to humility
Between end of November and early December 2008 I was contemplating about my commitment to teaching ministry. I started realizing that being in teaching ministry is difficult. The challenge for me is more to the attitude of my heart than to the capability of my intellect (well intellect was also a challenge as I'm not the studious type hehe).

I noticed that when one know more, one becomes more difficult to listen. I remember being scared and said to my self, "I don't want to be arrogant. And now I'm becoming like this! I've become difficult to accept what people say. I might want to hear, but not listen. Arrgh, ok this is not right and I don't want to be like this." I also noticed that people who are knowledgeable are more difficult to discuss things with. Discussion becomes more like a debate. Maybe I was also too arrogant to listen. Again... I was falling to the sin of arrogance.

I guess I'm the type who will try to find a solution to a problem. So for a while there I really was contemplating to quit teaching ministry. I thought this will be a solution since I'm too weak to temptation to be in teaching ministry.

I prayed over it, and one day... I believe God spoke to me. While I was praying, I was reminded of this reading from the scripture.

Matthew 25:24-25 said:
"Then the man who had received the one talent came. 'Master,' he said, 'I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. So I was afraid and went out and hid your talent in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.'


And suddenly the words of those verses spoke to me so very much clear. I was afraid just as the servant, so I want to hide the talent that God has given to me, my call to teaching ministry. I understand right away what I need to do is to still be in teaching ministry.

Still the problem is there, I don't want to fall for arrogance. So I prayed and ask God what I can do. And I came to thought of this 2 steps:

1. Acknowledge my weakness to fall for arrogance
2. Be humble in all that I do

So now this is what I'm praying for... humility.

Thought of making this my new year resolution. Still praying for it...

PS: Thanks Maya and Soni for encouraging me to share this.


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- Being grateful of the little things in life He has given me
Posted on Sunday, December 28, 2008 @ 12:02 am by gazer in Scripture | Comments (0)

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