After all this while, I've heard so many things about forgiveness. The importance of it, the need of it, the various testimonies about it. But only now that I accept the fact that I'm still having problem with forgiveness. For 1 whole year I put my motto 'to love as He loves, to forgive as He forgives' (even you can see it as my signature for this blog). But still I have problems when it comes to certain people in my life, especially those to whom I have given my heart.
This afternoon I was hurt by the way my friend answered me. I'm sure my friend didn't mean to hurt me. I have doubts whether my interpretation was correct or not. But when I check, turn out it's correct. And knowing it didn't make things easier for me to be ok with it.
Long story made short, I was thinking to share what I felt and apologize for the way I act because of it. I asked another friend whether or not I should share how I feel about things. And he said what's important is that I forgive. It was then that I verbalize all the things I have been feeling.
"It's hard for me to forgive people when they do not know that they have hurt me. Because it means that person will do the hurtful doing again. And if I were to forgive, it means I were to give more of my heart to this person. And when this person does the hurtful doing again, I will be hurt again. And I'm afraid to be hurt again."
But then my friend said, "Ya I know it's difficult. But that's the only way that you won't be further hurt when you share your feelings. Otherwise the time when you share will be even more difficult and hurting. You should share your forgiveness. Someone told me it's called forgiveness because you give before they ask. Take courage. God gives you His peace."
Then I replied, "Ok I'll try bro."
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- Being grateful of the little things in life He has given me